I make excuses. I make the often. Why do I do this?
Starting this week, I am stopping the insanity and getting back on the right track. I am starting back up with Weight Watchers (I haven’t canceled or anything but I haven’t been counting/tracking). I am going to start working out. I am not going to let myself get like this again.
Why the sudden change? Well, I have been feeling crappy about myself for too long and it’s time for something to happen. I can’t tell you when I stopped tracking on Weight Watchers, but I did. And I never really started back up. This has got to stop. I am putting an end to this now. I haven’t gained everything back that I lost the 1st time around, but I have gained some back and I don’t like that.
I think it really hit home for me when I bought my wedding dress. It became real if that is even possible. I know that I have to do something about my weight and my self image and I have to start now. It isn’t really about how I will look in the dress, it is about how I will feel. I want to feel beautiful and believe it. That is the biggest thing.
I don’t believe compliments that people give me. Not any more.
I have never been the best at accepting compliments but I used to believe people when they said them. I don’t believe anymore. This has got to change.
So, I started this week by getting back on Weight Watchers. I am tracking again. I am doing this because I know it works. I am proof of that. And I now know that if you stop tracking, you will gain weight back.
I am also going to start going back to the gym. I need to tone up my arms and work on my abs. A good cardio session will also do me a world of good. I have free weights here too that I can use. And I will use them. I need to stop saying, “I can” or “I should”. It needs to now be, “I will” and “I am”.
Who’s with me?
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